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October 2, 2009

Of epiphanies and metamorphosis…

Bridget Riley's Metamorphosis
Bridget Riley’s Metamorphosis

A couple of weeks ago, I had an epiphany. 

I have a fantastic job, that pays well, with a great company, a team I like, fancy offices, substantial freedom to pursue what I think is relevant, budget to spend and the power to get what I want due to the company’s high profile. 

My epiphany was that I don’t enjoy my job.

I don’t know why I didn’t realise this before.  I have felt an undercurrent of dissatisfaction with my work for some time now, but I kept going, thinking it was just a phase.  So the realisation that I don’t like my fantastic job hit me like a bolt of lightening.  I was suprised… I’m a bit thick sometimes. 

So what did I do? 

I quit.  Yup.  Immediately.  In fact I barely made it through our Monday morning WIP before blurting it out to my boss and then my team.  Everyone was suprised, because … well… see paragraph 1.

So there’s been some introspection on my part lately (that’s why I’ve been quiet).  Why don’t I like my fantastic job?  Why this compulsion to be done with it quickly?  Why did I feel so fantastic as soon as I made the decision to leave?  Why am I enjoying my job so much now that the end is in sight?

I guess part of the answer is my long standing love affair with change.  I love changing jobs, moving house, moving countries, changing lovers (well… who doesn’t like a new lover, right?) 

The itch to change something, anything, usually starts with a change in my appearance.  My hairstyle changes more often that the guard at Buckingham Palace. If I change my hair colour or style, it usually means curtains for my job… or my boyfriend… or both.

I don’t have the answers.  I’m afraid all my forays into introspection lead to more questions.  I should just give introspection a miss, and accept that new stuff, and starting again makes me happy. 

And chocolate.  Chocolate makes me happy too.



6 Comments »

  1.   Gillian — October 2, 2009 @ 2:03 pm    

    As one door closes and all that…….. Good on you for being brave and taking that step
    xo

  2.   thegreatchuckD — October 3, 2009 @ 7:35 am    

    Hey – good work (no pun intended)…

    Just left my workplace too – so it’s time to put the masterplan into action.

    I’m thinking of starting NZ’s first innovation agency. Looking around for brave and smart individuals with a passion for what they do.

    Good luck with your next steps.

    Charlie

  3.   Ashok — October 3, 2009 @ 11:28 am    

    So now you will have the time to compete in Master Chef New Zealand

  4.   technebish — October 5, 2009 @ 9:49 am    

    Thanks Ashok. It’s a great idea! Top Chef – Yeah!!!

  5.   Lance Wiggs — November 16, 2009 @ 6:11 pm    

    Good for you. It’s a really hard move to make but the right one. and if things get tough then you can always sell some shoes.

  6.   technebish — November 18, 2009 @ 10:33 am    

    Ta, Lance. Which pair were you interested in? Special price for you… :)

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